Across The Way Thread #16419
That Special Something
Created ByMona
Created DateMon, Aug 02, 2004
Created Time06:10AM GMT

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Mona8/2/2004 6:10:01 AM
Armand8/3/2004 1:20:01 PM
Eleanor Rigby8/3/2004 3:10:02 PM
spiritshelter8/3/2004 5:10:01 PM
in_rio8/5/2004 3:50:01 PM
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AuthorMessage #35169
MonaSubjectThat Special Something
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These are just some of my thoughts:

That Special Something

Is there some kind of world that rarely clashes with this one? I
mean, it searches, and analyzes until it finds the right...victim?
Is this even close to reality? We find people in our lives
sometimes, and we're not necessarily looking for them, but when we
find them...ah when we find them.
First person that gave me that...feeling. River Phoenix. I don't
even know what it was. Some sort of emotion that I didn't even know
existed until I felt. A feeling of exhilaration and flight even
though I was just sitting on my couch. Of awe. Of love. Of fear, how
powerful this person is. Of fear, of not knowing what this is. A
strange sort of...bond? Is it? Of realization that there is such as
thing as a spiritual connection and an answer or a statement to one
of the many purposes of this life. And still even more than that.
Something I still can't grip or understand.
Since then, I was not only searching for clues about River Phoenix,
I was searching for myself. The true me. I think I only found part
of what I was looking for. I don't know. Things just get too
complicated when I think about it too much and my head starts to
hurt.
What I do know, is that I found others, in a way like River. They've
shared what River shared with different people. Love, I think. River
I give you love back.
I mean it's like these people are so close to Death itself that they
know a secret, to creativity? Of living the dream of seizing the
day. It seems what they possess is so eerie and new and out of this
world that when they do actually bring it to reality, it's
remarkable and miracles start to take place. They amaze us more than
anything else.
There are some who just have it in some characteristic of theirs, or
something they do. You just have to find them. James Dean his
photographs. Jimi Hendrix his guitar, Jeff Buckley his voice, John
Lennon his thoughts, Leonardo Da Vinci his history, Andy Warhol his
art, Shakespeare his words, Marilyn Manroe her beauty, someone I
knew had it in their presence, Marlon Brando his acting – to me
River Phoenix has it all.
But sometimes I think, who am I to judge whether these people
just "have IT" I mean, I've only lived 15 years in this life, in my
body. Is it so obvious to know it or not know whether these people
possess this certain element within them? Does just hit you BAM, or
does it grow upon you day by day? Or is it the same for all or
different for everyone else? The colors of the sea aren't the same
everywhere are they?
Is it magic? Could it all be just an illusion? Am I going crazy? Or
am I just making this all up in my mind just to entertain myself? I
don't really care. I can feel it. I know it's there. Even if it's
there just in my mind. It's still there.
It was meant to happen. Meant for me to think these thoughts and
write them down before I go to sleep, to finally let something out.
It was meant for me to see him on screen. It was meant for him to
die.

Mona
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ArmandSubjectRe: That Special Something
PostedTue, Aug 03, 2004 01:20PM GMTMethodWeb-Site
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I am baffled why nobody has responded to this message yet because
its beautiful and one of the most wonderful threads. It needs to be
at the top of the list! Thank you so much Mona, you are keeping me
on my toes here with your feelings and making me feel euphoric and
positvely frantic!

> Is there some kind of world that rarely clashes with this one? I
> mean, it searches, and analyzes until it finds the right...victim?
> Is this even close to reality? We find people in our lives
> sometimes, and we're not necessarily looking for them, but when we
> find them...ah when we find them.

Its THAT feeling isnt it? Its like a feeling at the height of bliss
wrapped in a total enigma. The voices of the universe whisper it but
we can't hear them. By feeling it, we are on the right track I hope.

> First person that gave me that...feeling. River Phoenix. I don't
> even know what it was. Some sort of emotion that I didn't even
know
> existed until I felt. A feeling of exhilaration and flight even
> though I was just sitting on my couch. Of awe. Of love. Of fear,
how
> powerful this person is. Of fear, of not knowing what this is. A
> strange sort of...bond? Is it? Of realization that there is such
as
> thing as a spiritual connection and an answer or a statement to
one
> of the many purposes of this life. And still even more than that.
> Something I still can't grip or understand.

I think you understand it and you've conveyed it so beautifully that
im moved to tears.

> Since then, I was not only searching for clues about River
Phoenix,
> I was searching for myself. The true me. I think I only found part
> of what I was looking for. I don't know. Things just get too
> complicated when I think about it too much and my head starts to
> hurt.

I think its good for you . I think you've totally grasped
something here and the joy is trying to actually see it when you
feel it so powerfully.

> What I do know, is that I found others, in a way like River.
They've
> shared what River shared with different people. Love, I think.
River
> I give you love back.

I send love to you Mona because this is totally viable to how I've
felt, I feel a real affinity with you and your perception of him and
them.

> I mean it's like these people are so close to Death itself that
they
> know a secret, to creativity? Of living the dream of seizing the
> day. It seems what they possess is so eerie and new and out of
this
> world that when they do actually bring it to reality, it's
> remarkable and miracles start to take place. They amaze us more
than
> anything else.

I can't even respond to this because youve said it all..

> There are some who just have it in some characteristic of theirs,
or
> something they do. You just have to find them. James Dean his
> photographs. Jimi Hendrix his guitar, Jeff Buckley his voice, John
> Lennon his thoughts, Leonardo Da Vinci his history, Andy Warhol
his
> art, Shakespeare his words, Marilyn Manroe her beauty, someone I
> knew had it in their presence, Marlon Brando his acting – to me
> River Phoenix has it all.



> But sometimes I think, who am I to judge whether these people
> just "have IT" I mean, I've only lived 15 years in this life, in
my
> body. Is it so obvious to know it or not know whether these people
> possess this certain element within them? Does just hit you BAM,
or
> does it grow upon you day by day? Or is it the same for all or
> different for everyone else? The colors of the sea aren't the same
> everywhere are they?
> Is it magic? Could it all be just an illusion? Am I going crazy?
Or
> am I just making this all up in my mind just to entertain myself?
I
> don't really care. I can feel it. I know it's there. Even if it's
> there just in my mind. It's still there.

You are not crazy, and even if you were then its better than being
in this insane world. You are totally logical and thriving with
thought and feeling --- you are part of the same soul and you just
KNOW. I'm sorry these just sound like simple compliments but i just
have to express how grateful i am to you.

> It was meant to happen. Meant for me to think these thoughts and
> write them down before I go to sleep, to finally let something
out.
> It was meant for me to see him on screen. It was meant for him to
> die.

That is a really interesting, the destiny thing.
THANK YOU!
AuthorMessage #35234
Eleanor RigbySubjectRe: That Special Something
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Mona,

Your whole post is so beautiful, I don't know what to say...Adam has
pretty much said it all!

Just everything you said about that feeling, and finding yourself,
and...I don't know just everything...it really made me think, and
like Adam said, you've really got a hold of something here, and
you're conveying it wonderfully.

Thanks so much for posting, Mona and Adam!

Take care

...Aini
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spiritshelterSubjectRe: That Special Something
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I really liked your thoughts
thoughts that we can miss
if we are moving too quickly
and we miss the love and
the moments
between one thought
and the next one

God
the universe
poetry
ourselves
and River
interact in the essence
a special place where
we notice
and appreciate
and be
and love
without fear

Someone once told me "People never leave your life." I think this is
most true spiritually.
That special somthing might be the human spirit.

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in_rioSubjectRe: That Special Something
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THANK YOU, MONA!!! What a beautiful post you´ve written! Thanks for
sharing your thought and feeling with us.
peace and love,
Deb
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